Sunday, November 14, 2010

Beauty Isn't


Once I knew a queen of beauty
who preferred the life of tramp,
when the navy had us practice
walking through fire and drowning,
I could have told them
I learned that long ago.


Beauty isn’t as easily seen as ugly is,
stolen dreams and bones well broken
is ugly at its very best,
never let them steal your soul;
that is where beauty truly lives.


I knew a man from Biloxi, not far from
New Orleans I’m told, the land of fun streets.
I’ve known guys and gals who walked the mean streets,
Harlem, 8 Mile, Southside, but I’ve heard
the rubber burning down the thunder road.
Do those S curves at 100 mph and
three sheets to the wind and then tell me
about the razor’s edge.
We were young once, but never free,
forever we yearned for that glory road.


Once there was a dancer whose beautiful soul
was entwined with that of a poet. As luck would have it,
they each ran as fast as they could
down roads leading out of town;
never knowing that each were bound for each.
The glory road patiently waited
for their arrival.


I have seen the lies that beauty tells and
I have walked through fire down
the glory road and I know
what beauty is and what
beauty wasn’t.


Mike Carson
11-14-2010


Monday, September 27, 2010

The Tall Dark Horse from Tennessee



He was, of course, ten feet tall.
The tall, dark horse
from Tennessee.


“Camptown ladies sing this song…” ~ Stephen Foster

Put your money down
on the tall, dark horse
from Tennessee. I have an image in my head,
of a young Charles Bukowski, age ten, 1931;
running down to the corner news stand
to get his latest copy of Street and Smith’s
Sport Story to read Sam’s latest horse racing story.
I’ll give you even money on that one. I’ll bet Papa even
sneaked a peak to read the words of this man who
beat him to the left bank by two years.


“Man, that guy can write…horse racing and ladies in red…”

He was a front runner, odds on favorite
from any position, but he made the right move
at the wrong time. October, 1929 brought him to the ground
faster than the Hindenburg.
Put your money down
on the tall, dark horse
from Tennessee.


“Doo-da, doo-da”~ Stephen Foster


He watched his first Kentucky Derby
the year Old Rosebud came home first (1914) and
watched his last run for the roses in 1973,
Secretariat, a good enough ending, I suppose
for the man who called Grantland Rice “granny” and
Damon Runyon quiet. A sportswriter in Louisville
had to know and love his horses
and their riders.
Earl Sande on Zev, he said, was the best combo ever.
Here’s a Sam quote for you:
“It’s okay to dream, but then you gotta do.”
Put your money down
on the tall, dark horse
from Tennessee.


And it’s run for the roses, as fast as you can…”~ Dan Fogelberg

Sam played guitar and every other instrument
in the band,


“Camptown racetrack five miles long” ~ Stephen Foster

Sam painted, just because he could, just like
he attended classes at the Sorbonne
because he and they were there,
he delighted in the Left Bank,
because he could clearly see,
they were he.


“My life has been a poor attempt to imitate the man.
I’m just a living legacy to the leader of the band.” ~ Dan Fogelberg

Sam gardened at age three, gave 25 years in service
to the teachers of farmers and was still writing
a weekly column (Coffee with Carson) for a large farm newspaper
on the day he reached the finish line.


“Oh, de doo-da day.” ~ Stephen Foster

Sam was a tall teller, a tall teller of
the stories of
our lives. He owned every room
he walked into, but not to enrich himself,
his goal was first and foremost,
to enrich you.
His poet was Wordsworth,
his authors Dickens, London and Hawthorne,
his friends legion and legend, his God
known only to him.
Put your money down
on the tall, dark horse
from Tennessee.


“Goin’ to run all night
Goin’ to run all day
I bet my money on a bob-tailed nag
Somebody bet on the gray.” ~ Stephen Foster

He was a southern man who
had no time for bigotry or
suffering fools, not a popular stance in 1910. How many speak it
from the side of their mouth in 2010?
He was a champion of the underdog,
strong supporter of lost causes,
a believer until the end that
the fourth estate could rise above
pettiness.
Put your money down
on the tall, dark horse
from Tennessee.


“And much it grieved my heart to think
what man has made of man.” ~ William Wordsworth

The army put a rifle in the hands of
Mentor Watson Carson and sent
him off to see what he could do with France.
The crazy dreamer he worked for (Luke Lea) thought it fairly simple,
“Capture the Kaiser!” Bring him to justice in Paris, heads will roll.
As plans go,
it wasn’t a bad one, just suffered a bit in the
execution.
Ah, those boys from Tennessee fight fierce,
the 114th Artillary, 30th Division, all volunteer, of course.
Put your money down
on the tall, dark horse
from Tennessee.



“Another year! – another deadly blow!
Another mighty empire overthrown!” ~ William Wordsworth

I knew him as Grandfather
with a capital G:
I had Coffee with Carson
when I was just five.
He got scolded by Mergie,
but he just scoffed at her admonishments,
he knew what was really important.
I remember the days of wonder:
Hey! Come take a look at this!
Tomatoes the size of softballs,
a lifetime of knowledge behind them,
Clickity-clack, clckity-clack, clickity-clack, beep, zing,
clickity-clack, clickity-clack, clickity-clack, beep, zing, whirl,
a lifetime of knowledge leaping upon the page,
the trunk in the attic on Holbrook full of war treasures,
the ’69 Chevy doing 70 between red-lights on Broadway,
walking with him in his old home town,
selling the cookbooks in Pigeon Forge and Gatlinburg,
watching Bob Gibson dare the batters to hit his pitch,
the smell of pipe tobacco and old sweaters well worn.
I would have cut the grass for free
a thousand times.
I remember the last time and I remember
that sunset.
Put your money down
on the tall, dark horse
from Tennessee.
I’ve already bet my life on him.


“_____It seems a day
(I speak of one from many singled out)
One of those heavenly days that cannot die” ~ William Wordsworth

Mike Carson
9-27-2010

Monday, September 20, 2010

From Hell



I have found truth and now
I know that
I never really wanted it.


I used to wonder about things and now
my wonder is fading as
the black holes eat all of
the white spaces.


It seems that time has inevitably
worn the razor sharp edge
to a dull, rusty finish, but is that
what really happens? If truth be
all the gods mere figments of
our insanity, life nothing more
than a cosmic joke, then I would still
have reasons to go forward.


Living though, kills everything piecemeal.
Joy and wonder are just the first casualties
There is so much truth in the universe, that
we can always pick and chose
which to see and
which to ignore.


The truth is;
there is no writer,
no singer,
no artist, no preacher
who knows ultimate truth.
Go ask the men who wait
right over the ridge,
I’m sure they have an opinion.


I think I’ll stop looking for truth and
scare up a little
wonder and joy.




Mike Carson
9-20-2010

Sunday, February 21, 2010

The Faded Man

Plastic yellow roses don't
hold their color under
the skies of July.

Absurd colors swirl madly
into the black center as
the faded man searches for
something, anything that isn't
gray.

There's no marker.

In 1972, the faded man watched
his father console
his father
on the night his cousin died and
the faded man's father's father
couldn't understand why
a God would take
the young and leave
the old behind
to grieve in such
agony and pain.

The faded man has seen
grayer skies than he ever
would have imagined or
dreamed of and oh, yes,
he has seen rainbows
and blue skies;
but the gray plastic rose
has sent him tumbling
down the years
to all of the places
that sadness does not reach,
but he finds it lurking now
in every corner and
nothing, no thing, will take
it's place.

In 1976, the faded man
talked to God and
begged him to reconsider.
Ignored by God and
the rest of the universe,
he told them all to go to Hell.

The faded man feels faded
inside and out.
Secretly, he was never really sure
he was really here.

There should be a marker.

The faded man forces himself
down to his knees,
thinking maybe she
can hear him better
the closer he gets.

The faded man has lingered
long past all of the
others who put
the color in his life and
his mind circles round
and round the keen idea
that he might as well
end his fading now.

The faded man once brought home
a dozen yellow plastic roses and
now he wonders if
he should go get one
or a dozen
or a hundred, just
to watch them fade?
What would be the point?
That, of course, leads back to
the question of why and
what is the point of any of it.

The faded man can only hope that
he never stops caring about
the answer.

Mike Carson
7-30-2009